I don't know anymore!

So why am I writing this blog only for women?
Can't men take part too?
What is the difference between the sexes that makes everything seem so gender-fied?

Well, I'm not going to get into a long debate on that right now. Actually, I miss all your input!

So please, if you're reading this entry, respond via the blog or email-- with at least one word: love, ick, fantabulous~!, word!-- whatever flows from your heart! k? Can you do that? For me?

I don't just want to banter about the musings and mishaps of my everyday life. I want YOU, the reader, to speak-- to sing-- to spell out your meandering mind and heart for myself and others to enjoy!

The endless mutterings of the heart make me feel topsy turvy sometimes. In one day, I can experience a myriad of miniscule...and grandiose emotions! In one hour, I can feel the heartbeat of the Universe within the framework of conversations with co-workers, second language students, and my own heart and mind!

I just want to connect with people in a heartfelt way. I want to bring voices and grunts and bumps and chums together in a whirlishly dervish way.

How can this be done?

Well, I used to think it had to be done by going against the grain-- by defying all societal norms and forging my OWN path! This forging meant: no 9-5 job, no insurance, no wedding, no college degree (even though I'd already obtained one).

So... have I "grown up", have I "caved to the norm"-- the liminal way of being? Or have I just found that the heart blooms in simplicity. Basic survival ain't as easy as it used to be! We aren't in tribes hunting and gathering to survive. In that lifestyle, people have their place with greater ease. Some hunt, some gather, some cook-- and there's at least one medicine man or woman. But now there is SO much possibility-- that it can take humans their whole lives to find where their true heart's simplicity lies.

Stories like The Alchemist speak to so many because they are words people are thirsty for. It is not about "getting somewhere"-- but about being where you are. Ha! Plain and simple, isn't it?

Maybe it's just that that long journey in my 20s has come to an end and I'm reaping the benefits of some great reward: complacency and a sense of self and purpose-- even though I don't know what that purpose is half of the time!